The other day, my ex called me. I played a joke on him. There was some silly messages floating around about war has started. I forwarded to him, and within a few minutes he called and “scolded” me. He obviously didn’t expected that from me because he said I never joke. I do, but perhaps not with him. We talked for a while and it wasn’t so bad. We hanged up and today, because of what happened in office, I had no choice but wanted to ask him about a job. He’s leaving where he’s now to work elsewhere. I wanted to see if the place he’s working now is employing someone. He emailed back with some good information and I’m now thinking if I should go ahead and try. My head tells me not to because I didn’t want to appear like I couldn’t find another job without his help. Why am I thinking so much when all I did was ask what was the job scope? It seems cool, and a nice little step to bring me back to where I was originally from. I see development plans.

Today, I had dinner with my mother and told her about my situation at work, that people were no longer just seeing if you worked, but there were many other factors involved. I told her I want to try putting in resumes again the next time I step foot in Canada, hopefully this year again. And I’m not giving up. Once, twice, thrice, I’m sure someday I’ll get there. Maybe I should make it known to the person that I’ll come every year just to submit my resume. And maybe when he/she sees me every year, he/she would be convince that I’m serious. I’m also thinking that maybe the change of job might help in my resume. My mom encouraged me to go for it, and I told her I’m going to go there again and put in resumes again. I don’t care if it might be futile. I don’t have anything to lose. On the other hand, she admitted that asian parents are very protective of their off-spring, including her.

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