I think I met someone special in Vancouver. His name is John. But there are a lot of uncertainties. He is trying to forget his ex girlfriend completely and move on with life. There is no doubt we had some chemistry, but we are both rational to know that if it's meant to be, it will be. I do not wish to add pressure to him, moving on is something very personal and individual. Everyone moves on in a different pace. For that, I cannot do anything but to let him heal on his own. He said I deserved the best, I am not sure if that is what I wanted to hear from him, or if I know what he truly meant. He wants me to live life, by saying, still going out with people, other guys included. We know we are special friends, and I can only hope, that when he completely moves on, he would see me in his future, or maybe he won't...but I can only hope. I know this sounds very uncertain, but that's the way it is. No one said love was easy. I know I have strong feelings for him, but Adrian advised that I move on with life too. If he felt I was worth it, he would come back into my life someday, somehow. I know what Adrian meant.

What I can say, is I think I learnt a lot. I am happy to have met John. I just never thought I could meet someone like him. Everything else that comes after that would probably be a bonus to me. I can only think of it that way for now.

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